HI!!!!!
It’s been awhile……I’ve been on autopilot, just going through the motions, doing well to drag myself out of bed in the morning……Life has been COMPLETE CHAOS!
Chaos
Chaos and Mom just go together, don’t they? If you’re a mom and you don’t live chaos on a daily basis, please let me in on your secrets!!!!! Sure, some days and seasons are more chaotic than others. Sometimes chaos is at a mellow volume and other days the chaos is reaching the top of the decibel meter! It’s no secret that I suffer from some pretty major anxiety, so I’ll let your imagination run wild as you picture a house full of 7 kids! 7 kids is enough on any regular day to send me to the looney bin, but imagine the past few months full of sickness, 2 kids with surgery, more sickness, a broken vehicle, a broken garage door, family dynamic changes……well, you get the idea. Slowly, and I’m talking sleepy sloth pace, I’m trying to learn to embrace the chaos.
I’m pretty good at shutting down completely when I feel overwhelmed. That’s not God wants from me, though. God wants me to enter into whatever He’s placed in front of me. He is in those moments. Embracing the chaos is about looking for Him in the middle of the crazy mess. I don’t always have control over the chaos (and that’s tough for a control freak), but I have to remember that God is with me always. I need to be more aware of His presence and what He is doing in the middle of the wild days. He will guide me through the storm and towards the calm.
Embrace It
1 Thessalonians 5:16-19 “Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. Do not stifle the Holy Spirit.”
So, how am I managing? FIRST, I’m remembering to be thankful for everything in my life. It’s amazing how much peace comes and perspective changes by just being thankful. SECOND, I’m praying and asking the Holy Spirit to be with me through the mess. I’m asking him to give me eyes to see His plan. He’s not surprised by the chaos and He can give me the wisdom, joy, and peace I need in the moment. THIRD, I’m focusing on what is stable….God’s Love! Life can get painful, chaotic, and downright exhausting, but the constant through it all is God’s love for me. LAST, and this is the hardest for me, finding me time. Self care is soooooo important, and yet we neglect it. I find myself so caught up in taking care of others that I forget that I’m important, too.
I’m not perfect. I’m human. I’m struggling, but I’m learning to embrace the chaos and be thankful for all that I have. I may not know “why me” (see my instagram posts here) or have all the answers to what’s coming down the road. I do know that He’s got me covered and I can find a little peace in that.
